Dont mind me (Thoughts from a sad mind)

...All of the moments are already there
Try to go back and make them last
...
that's u baby, this is me baby
we are, we are, we are we areeeeee, we arrrrrrrrrrrrrrree
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee in love...

Words from Nelly Furtado's 'Try'
What if we try and try and try till our backs break from trying, its not so much the idea of trying, its the thought of not getting it (whatever we're supposed to be trying to get).

Is it only me or do you sometimes feel like giving it all up. I mean its ok to believe that you can be all you ever wanted to be, but...

I know i'm blabbing, its just one of those days when i cant get my thoughts together, when i think of everything and nothing at all.

i wish i was an angel, i would work particularly hard to make a lot of good people happy u know.
I know a lot of people that deserve to be happy.

While we're at it, what's happy? When do you become happy?

You know what i think? I think if we were very happy we'd be bored stiff. Imagine smiling all through and thinking 'i'm happy, there's nothing wrong with me, i'm happy, i'm happy...'

f*** that. you have to be sad to know what it is to be happy.

I'm an expert in that (being sad). Today alone i've succeeded in making myself the most miserable person in the world (a beautiful miserable person).

Alright alright, like mushu would say 'hold on to ur ectoplasms now'. I'm tired of being sad so i'm going in 'Pursuit of happyness', the thing is do i go left or right?

Voice for Rent - My crazy moments

Once a guy who was interested in me told me i had a nice voice and i should try singing. I dont need to tell you that i rushed off to do some serious practicing using my phone to record the 'beginnings/makings of a nigerian beyonce'. The song? Dido's 'life for rent'. I must say after i heard myself, i never spoke to the guy again.

Another time, i was adviced by my classmates to run for the office of vice-president of the department, and then i saw my self as the Rice of Nigeria. i was supposed to give a speech in front of the whole class. The morning i was supposed to give a speech, i woke up feeling sick, my friends tried to convince me that i would do well and i'm a 'natural'.... I actually prayed to have a fatal accident on my way to school, when that didnt work, i prayed that war would break out in the country. Needless to say, none of my evil prayers were answered and i found my self in front of the whole class and something happened, i literaly watched my voice run (on two legs) out the door. That was the end of my political career.

And YET another time, my friend and i convinced ourselves, after listening to a number of motivational tapes and reading a couple of books, that we could 'be whatever we wanted to be if only we made the move'. We decided to pool our resources together, and invest in barfs (clothing), we became sales girls. Each time i wanted to sleep or just have some play time, she'd scream 'eat that frog'. The frog being procrastination. Poor frog, or maybe poor procrastination. Imagine being a frog. 4 weeks and a lot of digested frogs later, we were very broke and in serious debt. Dont ask what we did to the motivational tapes and books.

Another time, i ...

Ahhhh, i've had my moments.